I’ve written very little lately which, by itself, makes me very uncomfortable. I’ve been in a period of introspection brought on by a bout of severe anxiety. I have battled anxiety since my childhood with an abusive mother. Even though I have always powered through the mild and the severest of it, I wish I didn’t have it. It’s uncomfortable and sometimes awful. The panic. The knotted stomach that is more content without food than with. The fact that my ability to be sensible, practical and logical disappears for bits here and there. However, there are silver linings. There is always something good in the not so good. I’m relentless in finding it every time not good shows up.
So, I’ve been sitting with the anxiety. I didn’t have much choice. I asked it why it’s here this time. As usual it shows up to inform me that change is needed. It insists that I examine what isn’t working and make some corrections. Tony Robbins says try a different approach. Don’t keep doing what isn’t working and don’t quit. Basically, try everything until you find what does work.
Rarely does one achieve success in life without exploring many ways to reach a goal. Be attached more to the outcome than the method. In fact, be completely addicted to the outcome.
In the end, I thank the anxiety for coming. For waking me up, often in the middle of the night, sweaty and with my heart racing. I know the outcomes I desire to achieve. They have not changed. NY Times bestselling author first and foremost, successful happiness and success coach and motivational speaker. I will change my methods.
The other good that arises out of being confronted with severe anxiety for two weeks, is that I am working on posts telling you how I combat it in the moments I’m not sitting with it. I can tell you what works for me. The other good that comes out of this battle, is that if you experience anxiety, and there are many of us of all ages, you know I am one of you. And that, for me, is the gift.